Happy Friday! So today's groovy video was inspired by my own life. You see, what had happened was that I was in this sich-ee-a-shun that had had me feeling all swirly in my innards and what not. OK, seriously, my poke at bad grammar aside, I found myself in a situation where I really had to get up and stand in my own power. I don't do that very well. And it's funny because a few weeks ago, I went to one of my favorite metaphysical shops and was pushed toward a really great Runes reader and one of the first things he told me was "You don't do well at standing in your own power. But that's ok because things are getting ready to start happening that will cause you to start doing just that." Well I'll be John Brown cause homeboy was right! And what I've learned is that it doesn't have to be any major event that makes you want to stand in your own power. Sometimes it's the little things we have a hard time standing up to say. And I've also learned that it doesn't take a huge display of a dramatic production to stand in your own power. Sometimes, it's as simple as saying "No." And I've also learned that it's not about fighting anyone. When you stand in your own power, you're really just taking a stand for yourself. It's not about fighting anyone because it's all about you anyway. The whole point to standing in your own power is to be true to yourself.
So as I explain in the video, my ex is getting married in Mexico next week (a fact he didn't tell me until the beginning of this month but hey who am I?) and he wants our daughter to be there. Nothing wrong with that, except for the fact that he wants her in attendance and her passport expired. So that meant she needed a new one, and ASAP. So an appointment had to be made at the Chicago Passport Agency to get an expedited passport. Well, he basically left it all up to me to get' er done (shout out to Larry the Cable Guy). I did the right thing by my kid and took her, but to show you how the Universe works, I couldn't even get it because he didn't give me the proof of her travel or a copy of his ID (since he wasn't in attendance for the appointment). And so he ended up having to take both our child and his soon to be wife's daughter this morning. (Don't even ask me how they knew they were getting married in Mexico and wanted the kids there, yet didn't make sure they had passports until now). So er, an-t-way, I was feeling some kind of way because I am a people pleaser. I have a strong tendency to care about others and put them before myself. Since I'm growing, it has become more uncomfortable for me to do that and it's causing me to speak up for myself. On the one hand, it feels really good, but on the other hand, it's uncomfortable because I have to work the nerve up to speak. I know with practice it'll get easier. And the same is true for you. If you struggle with that area, as I, then just know that you can. I saw Iyanla Vanzant last year and she said "You have a right, a reason, and a responsibility to speak out against anything that goes against what you know in your heart to be true." This is now my mantra and it's helping me in my fight against no one but myself.
